Hiding in the closet… Sober.

I haven’t shared in a while, but I felt like I needed to today. I’ve been sober for almost 6 weeks now. Yet, today, I feel like I’m (((this close))) to saying screw it. It’s just so overwhelming to stay sober some days. Too much drama in my life. I just want to drown it all out with a bottle of whatever. I mean it’s bad enough that I don’t even have an alcohol preference. I just want to numb the f— out. But, here I am. In the closet floor. Sober. Fighting off this demon one more day. Sigh. Just one more day. Sober.

Ray

5 thoughts on “Hiding in the closet… Sober.

  1. Ahhh… I so know how this feels. Just keep going. Often this feeling feels so…. permanent and overwhelming, right? But often it shifts within a couple of hours. Any idea what is triggering this desire to escape? Can you do something nice for yourself today?

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