As I have said before, when I quit alcohol and antidepressants, my paranoid tendencies went away. And what few I did have, after I quit all that crap, were manageable.
Well, when I put drinking back in my life, with or without the drugs, the paranoid comes back with a vengeance.
Today, we had a luncheon of 60 or so people to explain and explore an upcoming business venture. And lo and behold… the only woman that I feel paranoid about is there.
She hugs my husband and says “Hey, Big Boy!” before she sees me. The look of astonishment on her face was not lost on me or her. She proceeds to hug me (which is what we do in the south and there are times, like this one, that I really hate that custom) and acts like she didn’t just blatantly disrespect me and herself and her husband… for all that matters.
Anyway, she came up to me after the luncheon and started talking like we are besties and asking questions about my son. I don’t like her. I don’t like talking to her. I don’t like that she texts and Facebooks my husband with beer emojis asking him to get drinks with her. When I asked him about it, he says she is a drinker and does that to everyone. Well, there was a whole room full of people that she knew there. She didn’t hug or come on to any of them from what I saw. Just sayin’.
My point here is that I want to know if this is still lingering paranoia from the alcohol binge I had over the weekend and no big deal or if it should be concerning to me.
I am not sure if this is helping me or not to put this out there and hope for a response. But I had to do it.
Ray wants a drink.